between the lines

I once promised myself I'd stay open-minded, but not invested...

I failed to do so.

I had received plenty of warning...I should have been able to prevent it...

I didn't.

I can analyze past conversations and decisions as much as I want, but that will do nothing to change the present. And since I'm not the type of person to push blame on someone else, I won't. Because it really was my own doing. Sure, a person's actions or lack thereof might come into play. But technically, that person has done nothing wrong. There's no one to blame but myself for the way I feel. And the good news is I don't hurt anymore. Or at least, not like I did. I just hope that over time my head will become free from these invasive thoughts, and I'll learn not to care so much.

something more

yes, I am still
here.

I'll probably remain for a long while
here.

where I reside, how I feel is
here.

but who knows
when that may change?

someday I will no longer be
here.

I'll be there, and it will be magic.

monotony

sometimes the actual dates in a month will completely blend together. so much that actually taking a conscious look at a calendar for the first time in weeks brings about a massive wake-up call. especially when in just two days, the month will have reached its halfway mark.

keep it going

you made a mistake,
but didn't realize it till later

you made horrible mistakes,
but wouldn't realize them till later

you're making a mistake that might hurt someone else,
but you won't realize it till later.

simple

A melody, a tune
created in my mind;
I never thought I'd find
this kind of art so soon

To me, a song had come
so clearly and so true;
Tho forgotten after done,
it came to me: a tune

I don't need, and you don't need,
but I will if you do;
I don't need and you don't need;
I'm strong, no longer blue

readjustment

all this "seeing" was actually starting to blind me.

thank you for opening my eyes again, this time reminding me of some important truths. the uniqueness of every single individual, every soul. no one is better for having a certain perspective. we're all here to learn. to grow. excuse the cliche, but we really are all in this together...everyone is going through this learning process in his or her own way. that doesn't make it wrong; it makes it right.

"we're one, but we're not the same. we get to carry each other, carry each other."

recurrences

Lately,

I tend to mope and

cope,

but keep my

hope.