the hours

I'm sick of this elitism, this disconnect, this constant loneliness. I want some sort of ease. Sure, I feel bits of it from the sense of awareness, but no matter what I may see or feel, I can't stop this incessant longing for something more, something intangible. I sometimes taste freedom, but deep down, I am trapped. I want so badly to get out of my head, into some sort of ease. I want to be okay with the way we live.