omnipresence

My eyes,
they were opened
--or so I believed

That was just the beginning;
I now know that I need

to keep searching more deeply
as I open my heart

In You lies my love,
and this is the start

All the beauty & joy
that I've known to be true
are merely small pieces
of the overall You

So grateful am I
as I'm starting to see
that the answer's in me,
and your light sets us free

I'll search and I'll find
what was there all along

I'll search and I'll find
that your Love is the song

within you & without you

as I sit here & the night wares on, I recall yesterday's walk (crisp air, the twirling dance of leaves, and a crystal-clear sky).

The past few days I've come to realize something: I'm much quieter than I used to be. Sure, that has has always been an occasional characteristic of my personality...but this is a more definite shift. It became apparent while recently spending time with dear friends I hadn't seen in a while. There were many more moments in which I felt no desire to infuse the conversation with loud & spontaneous energy. Instead, it felt more right for me to observe & maintain a sense of calm contemplation. Again: sure, those have always been characteristics of my personality...but they've grown deeper now. I found myself having to frequently insist that I was "okay," to assure them that nothing was wrong. Part of me wishes I could better explain the reason for this change, but I know that's something I must keep within as I continue on the path.

as I sit here & the night wares on, a familiar, winter-sort of wind howls outside my window (echoing from chimney to fireplace, rustling the trees, and bringing peace).

a tender truth

you looked me straight in the eye & said that every person is made up of various boxes and that in our relationships, we have to turn over all the boxes that make up a person in order to uncover their individual being. you told me that right now, a present interaction provides ongoing excitement and mystery; while over here, the last box was overturned a long, long time ago. so far back in the past that we couldn't remember if we tried...so far back that right now, there is nothing left to find.

and that is perfectly alright.

now

Love is bigger than the mind. Love is bigger than what I want. Love is bigger than envy...and much more than a feeling.

Love is recognition; it is acceptance.

infinite: don't forget

we're all learning,
we're all growing

deep within...we remain one.

It's quite the paradox, but we're heading toward the same goal...ultimately we'll all reach the same state.

deep within...your soul's still there.