you said you didn't want to be numb anymore.
but you took your newfound abilities and went telling everything to a person unworthy, a stranger--getting swept away by the facade.
you've learned 2 things from this:
1)Never devote that much time to someone..especially someone you don't even know--no matter how much you think you may.
2)Never allow yourself to EVER become that numb again. Hold on tightly to this connection with your emotions, and always remember to use it wisely.