even in the quietest moments

There's something I want to add regarding my last post. As I wrote, for some reason I personally find the idea of "worship" to be a bit extreme. On the other hand, I find the word "devotion" beautiful. That may seem strange because from certain perspectives they could be considered synonyms. But that's not the case for me. I see devotion as something completely different. I associate it with expressing gratitude toward members of my soul family, the ascended masters and soul groups helping us, and our Creator...a way of expressing the love I feel for the universe in its entirety.

For me, the word "devotion" has such a special, comforting connotation for those very reasons.

rambled, repetitive thoughts

This morning something occurred to me. I mean, I've thought about this a lot recently but for some reason this morning in the kitchen I was reminded and wanted to write about it. This probably isn't going to make sense, but I want to try and get my thoughts out somewhere. I apologize for any incoherence.

So recently I've been thinking a lot about the word "worship" and the way so many of us are taught and feel the need to fixate on worshiping higher powers. This may sound weird because I've grown up hearing it all the time, but the word just has such a weird connotation for me. I don't know. Maybe because I don't find it necessary. Or at least the dramatic way that it often occurs. I don't think God, or whatever term you want to use to describe the Creator, has any desire or need for us to "worship" Him/Her (those pronouns aren't even necessary).

It just seems like spending so much time worshiping can make us feel unworthy. From this viewpoint many of us say that all humans are "sinners." And according to this, a power higher than ourselves is far better than we are and ever could or will be. Thinking this way takes us away from the opportunity to work on ourselves and belittles us, separating us from who we really are. It also can take the focus off of ourselves and our own chances for personal growth. It seems like an easy way to disregard personal responsibility, thinking our troubles are too difficult for us to handle on our own and that things happen to us for no specific reason.

We are so busy worshiping wise souls and turning prophets into idols that we forget their original messages. We put people on pedestals, as if we are incapable of achieving their same level of wisdom and greatness because they were somehow chosen and created by God to be better than the rest of us. It's sad because the expansive journey toward Self is beautiful...and the whole concept and desire of this Universe (I am not wording anything properly right now) is beyond words.

Perhaps instead of constantly "worshiping," we could work on trying to better understand our Oneness, express daily gratitude, and acknowledge the need to love and serve one another.

But this is just my opinion.

(if you know what the meaning is)

"As long as your objectives lie within this physical illusion it will be necessary for you to be subject to the laws which prevail within this illusion. If your desires can be altered by the application of what you are learning and are lifted in the creation of the Infinite One, then, my friends, you may have a great deal more ability to remove yourself from the corners into which the illusion seems to back you."

I'm finding more and more that my original desires arrived from a place of beneficial, positive intention. It is okay that I felt the way I did, and I'm not crazy for doing so. It appears that I was starting to be introduced to a higher vibrational energy. However, due to various circumstances, they were quite too immense and became extremely difficult for me to channel properly and control.  

It makes a lot of sense that I've gone through what I have these past years. I needed to learn that I cannot allow my hopes for a "new earth" allow me to not accept and understand the immutable law of free will. Though yearning for a better understanding of the Infinite, my ultimate objectives (though spiritually based) were indeed still focused within this physical illusion. Now I have the chance to apply the love I felt and wanted to give to this world in a realistic manner...free of delusional ideals, understanding healthy limits. 

There is much I need to learn and work on. I'm glad that in mid-March 2011 both of them told me to "just be." I probably wouldn't be where I am right now. Nor would I be able to piece together that lesson with those intense forthcoming experiences and all I am presently studying. 

"This, my friends, is what man of Earth must return to if he is to know reality: this simple thought of absolute love, a thought of total unity with all his brothers regardless of how they might express themselves or whom they might be, for this is the original thought of your Creator." 

every day a choice is made.

So many of us spend time blaming other people; or if not that, just complaining about their actions and decisions...things completely out of our control. I've learned that not only is that a waste of energy, but it's a distraction. It takes us away from the opportunity to view the situation from an unbiased perspective, without emotions getting in the way.

Current events--be they in politics or personal affairs--are a fantastic opportunity to observe and engage, to stay informed and take part in life. However, I have found that while we do so, an approach of detachment is much healthier both mentally and spiritually. It's a fantastic way to understand the carnal mind and the way in which it sees virtually everything from a place of duality...making us easily upset or sometimes even fueling our egos. The more I observe this at work in others, it helps me work on myself. I'm not saying I'm exempt from this behavior. Every day brings me the chance to apply my observations; when dealing with my own attachment to this restless mind and relative viewpoint, I try my best to approach all thoughts and situations from the higher consciousness. Reconnecting to this in the fullest possible capacity is my ultimate hope and goal.

I'm grateful to remember, and ready to accept personal responsibility.

ascend

the world is changing,

and we're sitting here.

but the shift is still happening

slowly, but surely

...or is it slow?

i'm not sure.

plus, it's not like our concept of "time" exists anyway.

all i know is there is so much.

so

so

so

so so so much.

and i just want to absorb more of it,

to understand.

to study with those who want the same,

to remember.

what's hardest for me lately is interacting with everyone as complete individuals. that's worded terribly, but i've decided i'll just keep typing. anyway, it's just been a bit weird lately for some reason. i mean, for a long time i've understood and felt the unity among all of nature but these days our whole existence just feels unnatural when i am out in public or even spending time with family. i find myself constantly thinking how we are literally all connected and just different expressions of one Creator, but we aren't expressing it or at least recognizing it to the degree that we can...and yeah, that sorta sounds of obvious. but it's hard for me to accept. especially because literally every single one of us is so unique and has traits that no other soul can  offer in exactly the same manner when experiencing life.  again, my words aren't coming out properly tonight. 

this third density business becomes more and more...bah, i don't even have an adjective...more and more "bahhh" with each passing day. i want out. but i just need to keep progressing and growing and working toward what will assuredly happen in the future. in the meantime, i need to remember to take more time to go within because when it comes down to it, all i really want(ed) to do is be of service to others. i've learned that sometimes it's as simple as sending out loving energy.

every thought counts.